This new life of mine, I’m going to let it shine……
Well, my blog posts have gotten a lot less lately, and it’s no wonder, because I have two minis to take care of! Free time? Unfortunately, that changes day to day, and when I have it, I’m probably trying to get an exercise in (because that makes me happy), do laundry, do SOMETHING. It feels like the To Do lists last weeks at a time. But, I write them. I do set goals…One day at a time right?
This new life of mine, it may not be as glamorous as before, but I feel much more at peace. Sure it’s not peaceful to be “On” 24/7, but I have this new sensation of happiness about not having to be somewhere every single day, that is away from my children. Are we broke? Kind of. Does money buy happiness? Nahhhhh….it can help though for sure..
This new life of mine is also another transition phase. I am home with my babies, but starting school in May to become a nurse. I picked this time to start my schooling because that’s just what the universe had planned out for me. No joke, it just worked out this way. I’d rather be in school and “getting by” financially while they are still young and won’t remember it. We are okay of course, my husband is working his tail off day and night to make sure of that. We aren’t as secure with me not having a full-time job at the moment, but we just take it one day at a time, and we know there WILL be light at the end of this “phase”.
Life is always about phases though don’t you think? Journeys, phases, adventures from one goal to the next. I just happened to step into a majorly new one, after leaving my job of 16 years. And you know what? It’s an insane new life of mine, I’m constantly braindead, always sleep deprived, always trying to take advantage of my free time rather then relax….but…it’s also AMAZING.
When you leave something that is weighing you down mentally and physically, naturally you’re a whole new person when the chapter is closed. I feel, brand new. I struggle daily with how to get from the morning to the evening mostly on my own with my husband working so hard, but I always do it. Mothers, fathers, heck all parents, are superheroes.
We dive into these new lives of ours, sometimes drowning, and sometimes rising, but we just DO IT. We take on our new roles and attack the process of parenthood.
This new life of mine leaves me dirty most days (sorry hubs), changing 100 poopy diapers on the regular, not being able to leave the house for more than a few hours since my daughter won’t take a bottle yet, sleep deprived, constantly on, picking my battles with a two year old( winning some and losing some) and always just taking it one day at a time. I call it survival mode, and it’s the HARDEST thing I’ve ever done, but I am SO happy to be doing it. I’ve been known to love a good challenge…
Namaste, and Rock On!