Last week, was certainly one of the most powerful weeks I’ve had in a very long time. I knew my week would take me not only all over NJ, but a quick trip to Massachusetts as well. I knew I was excited to dive into such a busy holiday week, but I didn’t know what would be in store for me. It truly was a week of all weeks.
On Monday, December 7th, my baby went to his first concert! Mike and I went down to the Starland Ballroom to see the band who wrote our wedding song, “City and Colour”. It was amazing as always, but I definitely learned that the next concert I go to pregnant, must have seats! At least we got some wall space, and I had never seen the band so close!
Unfortunately that night we also learned that our uncle Norm had passed. He was my childhood. His family, his humor, his home, pure childhood. I wept for the past, I wept for my first cousins, and I wept for the cycle of life. Sometimes, it’s just so hard to realize that you are truly an adult. Yes I am married, yes I have a baby in my belly, yes I’m saving for a house, and yes I work full time, but the utter fact that I won’t sit around the Passover sedar table with my uncle Norman’s jokes, and giggle like the young girl I was, makes me sad. I weep for all of our youth, and I weep for the fact that I know my baby is going to be a grown up one day, and I’ll keep growing. The cycle of life, so sensitive and fragile and wonderful all at the same time.
Uncle Norm, you will be missed daily, I miss you already.
After quite a low, and a work holiday Christmas party, I experienced one of the biggest highs ever watching my niece as a reindeer in the Nutcracker Friday night. My mother and I drove up Friday morning, and even though we experienced a VERY long traffic filled ride, the trip was worth every single second to see my niece on stage. I kid you not, it was the CUTEST thing I think I’ve ever seen. We had such a wonderful evening as a whole my mother, me, sister, brother-in-law, and his parents, with their spouses. We had a wonderful dinner together, and then all of us got to experience the magic of Scarlet’s Nutcracker performance. I can’t even put into words the joy and emotion I felt watching her up there. It reminded me of me as a little ballerina, it reminded me of the spirit of Christmas, and it reminded me that even though there are many sad times in life, the GOOD really outweigh the bad. Every single one of us cried happy tears at the beautifully adorable and just perfect evening.
I was exhausted beyond exhaustion by the time I got home Saturday, but I rallied. I had driven both ways (pregnant) to Massachusetts and back, but Mike and I had a date to look for our new family car Saturday evening. So, I rallied. What better way to make the week more magical, then to purchase our first family car! I traded in my Honda fit, I traded in my past, for a bigger, better, and more safe future!
And, that’s not even the end of it! Sunday was my nephew’s 5th birthday party to end the week of all weeks. My brother and sister-in-law have a traditional family gathering every year for my nephew, and it couldn’t be more homey and lovely! This year our niece Sophia was an absolute ham as well, walking around and stealing peoples’ phones every chance she could get! This past summer Mike and I had taken my brother and Andrew, my nephew, to Monster Jam, so we figured a T-shirt and a Monster truck was a suitable gift!
I watched as Andrew blew out his candles with his entire family surrounding him, and couldn’t wait to be doing that for my baby boy as well someday very soon.
The week was certainly filled with sadness, but the happiness was the “stuff”. The “stuff” is what keeps you going, and reminds you that in tragedy, life will go on, as hard as it is to do so, it’s always worth it. The deceased are never truly gone anyway, they are in our hearts and our minds watching and living with us as we experience all that life has to offer, and it really has a LOT to offer.
This post is dedicated to my Uncle Norman, RIP, all of our love to you.
“Magic, is something in life that you make”
Namaste, and Rock On!