Well, the weather outside is definitely frightful, and this year a fire may be delightful but way too hot, and how I wish it would snow ………..Nonetheless the holidays are here, in this very wacky NJ weather, and it’s the last time it’ll just be the two of us.
Next year there will be TWO new baby boys at the Christmas celebration. My sister and her son, our baby boy, oh the magic I can’t even handle it! But, that’s next year. This year, will be the last year, the holiday isn’t wrapped around the happiness of my son. How weird is that?! It’ll be the last Christmas morning that I sit around and watch my nieces and nephews open their gifts, without having to try and get our baby boy’s open. I can actually take one last Christmas to soak it all in, and sit back with my Santa Claus looking belly, and just be present.
That is my goal this year, to really relax, and be present.
Then again, this pregnancy has made me so beyond tired, that I really have no choice then to relax. But, I can’t help but get butterflies of excitement knowing that next year there will be a baby on my lap, or Mike’s, or any of my siblings, parents, etc. There will be babies to light up the house. I love how Scarlet, my oldest niece, mothers the new cousin each and every time. She’s magical. I can’t wait to see her with her baby boy cousins next year. I know I have 367 days until that happens, but it’s the holidays, its the time for dreaming.
So I look forward this year to the peace and stillness of the setting, the calm before the storm, the BEST storm. Where dreams are still magic, and reality is about making them come true. I look forward to Christmas Eve with my in-laws, and Christmas morning with my siblings and the children. I look forward to old traditions, and making new ones that I don’t even know about yet. I look forward to ignoring the rain and heat this year, and pretending in my heart that it’s cold out and snowing. The holidays after all, are about making them your own, so I wish you a happy, healthy, and peaceful holiday.
“Magic is believing in yourself, if you can do that, you can make anything happen.”
Have a magical holiday, Namaste, and Rock On!