Last weekend we attended the March of Dimes 2018 walk for our second time. We wanted to go when Parker was just born, but he was only a month old at the time, and the weather was awful. Last year we had such a blast, and this year was completely different, but still amazing.
The thing is, as adults, we are always on the go. We have a weekly To Do list, a daily To Do list, and it goes on and on. I am absolutely a fan of the To Do list. It keeps me organized, and feels SO good when I get to cross things off. However, to be fully present and engaged, sometimes we have to ditch the To Do list.
Theres a happy medium, a juggle, trial -error, and always balance. For example, today I napped with my daughter instead of putting her down in her crib, got a teeny tiny bit of sleep, then back to my list. I felt like I NEEDED that nap, and bonding time, but I also needed to get things done. It’s not always rainbows, and unicorns, but it’s a forever work in progress, and today was a great example.
At the walk last weekend, I happened to be the Team Leader. What did this mean to me? I had the most amazing group of people walking with us, and I wanted to make sure everyone was doing okay the whole time, including my baby and toddler. I did feel the pressure of society to finish the walk in a timely manner, and if it were up to me, I would’ve put my toddler in the stroller to make everyone’s life easier. But you know whose life wouldn’t have been “easier”?? The star of the show, the point of the walk, my son, Parker. He absolutely wouldn’t go in the stroller, and my saint of a husband walked with him, the ENTIRE walk.
We were pretty much the last to finish with the end car strolling behind us, but you know what, I’m SO lucky my husband let go of society’s pressure, and was just able to enjoy the present tense with Parker, more than I could’ve. He let my son take his time, smell the roses, pick the grass, and pretty much have the BEST time ever. When my son is “free”, he is in his glory, so boy was he happy to have some of his favorite people surround him as he walked HIS walk.
I didn’t see the lesson at the time, but I definitely saw it after. My son teaches me lessons on a daily basis, but this one hit me harder than normal. He showed me that the entire point of the walk was for him, so why not let him walk his walk, and forget what others might think. Sometimes I’m too concerned about the surroundings to stop and smell the roses, and truly engage in my present activity. Of course there are exceptions to the rule, but how great is it that he truly did walk his entire walk. We wouldn’t have even been there if it wasn’t for him being the rock star preemie that he is!
Children are always teaching us things about ourselves. Sometimes they don’t feel so good, and sometimes they do, but nevertheless, we learn. We learn what to do next time, we learn what not to do, we forever learn, every. single. day.
Some days are insanely hard with a five month old and a two year old, some sail at a smoother pace, but I learn every single day about myself, and my children. I learn to appreciate the small things, and to take each day a time, and definitely to be patient. I’m a work in progress always, but there really is no better education and nothing I’d rather learn more, than to be a good mama.
What have you learned about yourself or your children lately?
Namaste, and Rock On!