Halfway there….

I remember the days filled with tears, frustration, disappointment, and sadness, and just like my friends said they would be over, they are always in my memory, but seem like a lifetime ago.  Today, was not one of those days.  Today was a VERY good, beyond amazing, reason to be alive type of day.  Today was our 20 week ultrasound, and we are halfway there….

My baby is saying Hi!

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Ironically I had a dream last night about my nana who we would’ve named the baby after, had it been a girl.  Maybe one day?!  In my dream, I was caring for her and making sure she was fed before bedtime.  As she laid down to sleep she sang the lyrics of Green Day’s “Time of your Life”, then passed on.   I woke up crying, but also felt very comforted.  I felt like my nana was telling me the ultra sound was going to be okay, and that she too, was OKAY, and that we all should have the time of our lives.  It helped calm some nerves on the way to the appointment, so did having my mother, and mother-in-law with us!

The appointment was about an hour.  There were times I didn’t feel so good during the ultra sound because of being on my back for too long, but overall, I rode the high of seeing our little boy dance on the screen.  As the ultra sound tech exclaimed, he wasn’t shy about showing us he was a little boy either!  That’s my boy!

Those feet, I can’t get enough of his little baby feet!

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The waves, when he reached his arms above his little head, I could just die of cuteness!

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I can’t lie, his little mushy 3D face sort of reminds me of mine.  I’m probably crazy, but as of right now he has my little button nose!

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The tech at Atlantic Maternal Fetal Medicine was SO amazing as well!  My mothers sat in awe, I watched in awe as Mike soothed me by rubbing my arm, and the lady explained very calmly EVERYTHING!  It was more then I could’ve ever imagined, it was MAGIC! I will never ever ever forget today.  It’s really, getting real!

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I also found out that my baby is blanketed by an anterior placenta.  I did feel flutters early on, but I have to admit they aren’t that often.  This soothed my brain because I know plenty of women who had anterior placentas and even though you “may” not feel as much, the baby will get big enough in the next few weeks that I will HAVE to feel that munchkin!

After the ultra sound, we took our mothers out for a holiday brunch.  It just kept the magic flowing as we continued to speak about the appointment, and our excitement about meeting the little man!  He is going to be SO loved, he already is.

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There was a time not too long ago I didn’t know if I’d ever get to this point.  I didn’t even know if I’d ever get pregnant.  One thing I did have though, was HOPE.  I never pictured myself not a mother, I always saw children in my future.  I never gave up, and used all of the resources I could to make the dream a reality.  For my friends/readers who may feel lost or on a difficult path, please, please, never ever give up.  Today is the kind of day all of the hard and painful ones make up for.  They are a memory, a reminder, but they did not define me.  I define me, and right now, I’m a mother.

See you in 20 “ish” weeks my baby boy, I love you.

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Namaste, and Rock On!

“Little boy you remind me how so much depends on days made of now.”

  18 Replies to “Halfway there….”

  1. December 17, 2015 at 7:00 pm

    Aw, I loved when I had sonograms with both my girls and my favorite was always the 20 week ones when I found out the sex of my girls. This totally brought me back and I also have a sonogram photo of my younger one waving to me still. Hugs and seriously this post tonight truly made me so happy to see!! xoxo 🙂

    • December 17, 2015 at 7:07 pm

      I’m soooo freaking happy thanks Janine! Yes you get it as a mama!!!!! What an experience, what a ride! xoox

  2. Kurt
    December 17, 2015 at 7:02 pm

    Thanks for sharing the journey. Even 25 years ago when my youngest was just a belly, the technology just couldn’t connect me the way you can. And when I saw the 3D shot, I thought the same… Looks like Lindsay.. Enjoy!

    • December 17, 2015 at 7:06 pm

      YAY!!!!! hahah I’m not crazy! It’s a little mini me with a different genital organ:) xo

  3. December 17, 2015 at 7:03 pm

    Awww – those pictures… they are so (!) clear it’s amazing. Totally awesome!
    And now, some Green Day, please 🙂

    • December 17, 2015 at 7:06 pm

      Thank you sweets!!! I’m still in shock of how wonderful life can be!!!! Well worth the wait! love you! xo

  4. Anonymous
    December 17, 2015 at 8:33 pm

    I’m am so incredibly happy for you and Mike. This journey in life will bring you so much love and happiness. It will change you and make you stronger. Embrace it, cherish it, and love every moment of it. This little bundle of love is very blessed as you and Mike are. God Bless you all!!!!

  5. Erin
    December 17, 2015 at 10:12 pm

    I happened to come across your blog as a friend liked your FB post. We are expecting 4/28 and are having a boy too! Our ultrasound for our 1/2 way mark is tomorrow and it made me so happy to see your blog/post! Thanks for sharing 🙂

    • December 17, 2015 at 10:17 pm

      Aw yay!!! Have a blast!!! I really really loved it today! I will warn you at one point I felt “off” if you do just turn to the side. It really does happen the laying on your back too long thing hahaa but it went away fast. My tech was amazing and I’m so happy for you! Congrats and enjoy it!

  6. December 17, 2015 at 10:25 pm

    I am sooooooooooooooooooo excited for you! Yay! Namaste and rock on – yes!

  7. Liv
    December 18, 2015 at 8:37 am

    I have my ten year old son’s ultrasound pic framed on my dresser. After two misses…seeing that on the screen brought me to tears. Thank you for letting me experience that again. Congratulations Mama!

  8. Cheryl Bufis
    December 18, 2015 at 10:49 pm

    Lindsay, I remember when I was trying to get pregnant….seems like a lifetime ago. It was a long ordeal and I didn’t know why I was having such difficulty when people I knew got pregnant so fast – it was unbelievable. But I had faith and prayer. And the Lord had a reason. Maybe it just wasn’t time for my wonderful son yet. But when it happened….it was the best day of my life!!!! That was over 23 years ago! My son Mike is the BEST thing that ever happened to me! I know your son will be such a wonderful addition to your family. The love you will feel for him will be amazing! God Bless You and much happiness ! Happy Holidays!

    • December 23, 2015 at 6:12 pm

      Aw, exactly! Right baby, right time! I love your mike;) xoox Happy holidays and thanks for sharing!

  9. December 20, 2015 at 6:59 pm

    This is the happiest post ever!
    And very cool dream about Nana.

    • December 23, 2015 at 6:12 pm

      Thanks aunt Tam:) I had a dream about the little man last night and he pooped all over the place and was a toddler talking in sentences! Oh pregnancy dreams!

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