I started this blog last January, the very beginning of the year and for the most part, it really tells the tale of my year. As I sit down to reflect on the past year, I can’t help but want to do the same as last year, exhale out 2015, and inhale in 2016. Every year comes and goes, but if we are lucky, we even learn some lessons, and I am VERY excited for 2016.
As a newlywed, I spent most of last winter inside, writing, practicing my yoga, and praying, hoping, a baby would come. It was a very long winter, great on the wallet married to a man who plows for the town. I had many, many, ups and downs.
There were times that I felt lower then I’d ever gone. The unknown can be so scary. The not knowing if I’d ever get pregnant, the monthly disappointments, the monthly hopes, it was a lot of pressure on a newly married woman who also was trying to build her marriage.
But, like every battle, I learned more lessons about this life, my marriage, and myself then probably any other year of my life. It was the year I struggled beyond my means to hold together my sanity, while wondering if I’d ever be a mother. It was the only goal I couldn’t just fight hard enough to get. I continued to fight, and I continued to be beat down, but eventually, the storm passed, and I stand very, very, tall today.
2015 was the year I got pregnant. It was my first year of marriage completed, and I’m sure the first of many open-ended paths. We will always have those token years we can look back and know were just a part of the journey, and then those big years that stand out to us as the lessons, and even lessons learned years. 2015 was a roller coaster of emotions for me, I will never ever forget the journey I was on, and will always be on.
May you and yours have a wonderful fresh start. If not for the new year, whenever you want it to be. Every single day we are alive is a chance at a fresh start. I have a long way to go still in this pregnancy, at 22 weeks. I have a lot more to be fearful of, and even more to be thankful for. I choose to keep my faith and heart open, and know I will always get to the other side, and so will you.
Happy New Year to my readers, thank you for an AMAZING first year writing for this blog!!!!! May you have a year filled of magic and insane amounts of smiles!
Namaste, and Rock On!